Wednesday, December 26, 2007

thanks

it's good to know tat u concern about me, saying sorry for not knowing how 2 console me...thanks, tat means tat u care bout me...

anyway, having run-away trip is quite good 4 me...let everythg behind n juz enjoy...c many good thgs...having a happy trip...get 2 know more frenz...it's good...only tat, i miss them, i miss d life, d life wiv almost no worries...even though i juz return from West M'sia few hours ago...i start 2 miss them...perhaps dun know when i could see them again in my life...

so, i'm now very much better compared 2 b4...sorry 4 making u guys worry by posting d previous post...thanks 2 every frenz including those whom i juz met...

thanks 2 Tony, although i juz met 4 less than 48 hours, but u make me feel good, u r a nice fren...dun know whether u will c this or not...but i wan 2 say tis 2 u: open out ur heart, but not holding too tightly, frenz may suffocate...anyway, i like u as the way u r...(",)hope 2 b fren forever!!!

tis few days r quite happy n new 2 me...thanks God 4 giving me tis opportunity to experience this kind of life...wiv tis opportunity, i regain my strength...thanks God!!!May all d glory b wiv U, Lord!!

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

对自己失望了

我不知道我应该怎样看待自己

总觉得做的事都不顺利

对自己失望

不知道自己过去是怎么过的

不知道自己过去怎么对自己有信心

自己好像很没用

这个也不会,那个也不会

Monday, December 10, 2007

hehe

What a pleasant!!
It's so glad to c all of u having so much fun n joy in d camp
i'm happy for u guys, seeing that u guys having a good time wiv one another
anyway, enjoy ur prefect life!!!(",)

Wednesday, December 05, 2007

对不起,谢谢

这是考好试的第一个文章
之前,其实觉得自己有点忧郁症倾向,好怕
而且,好像让我身边的朋友很辛苦,因为我会在猜测一些有的没的
对不起哦,大家!特别是我弟们...
是我忘了去体谅你们,又想七想八
误会你们,是我的错,sorry sorry sorry sorry...

让过去的过去吧!
朋友,谢谢你们的鼓励、你们的陪伴。
过去所作的伤害我知道是无法完全磨灭,我只希望,你们能够不怪我、原谅我...
特别是你们,弟...

Saturday, December 01, 2007

无题(不是因为没主题,而是因为不知给何题)

考试...剩下最后一天了...

做一个班上成绩最好的学生是有代价的...

别人不了解你
考试前,讲还没预备好,没人信
考试时,讲没把握,没人信
讲出心中对考试的忧虑、不安,同样的,也没人信
讲出来他们还不理呢!

所以学会偶尔讲话讲得比较自负些。可是...
讲自己不会,别人不相信
比较自负些,讲自己没问题,别人讲嚣张

好吧!反正大家都觉得我没问题,也就没人会主动关心关心我
那我就要求几个没在考试的朋友有空的话关心关心我,结果还是没啥消息

昨天我心情低落,就发信息给他们,要求他们肯定肯定我,让我更有信心
我也没期望他们会回信息的了
但是过一下收到了封回信,叫我要加油,不过写法有点怪
后来考证后确定他是因为误以为是他女朋友才回了那封信息,如果早懂是我,就不回了
不过,我还是收好那份鼓励,当作他没发错信息

为什么呢?
因为那是我收到的稀少的鼓励信息的一封,特别是从“他们”那里发来的更是稀少中的稀少
所以,物以稀为贵,就算是发错,我也珍惜
他一定不懂那封信息给我的肯定和信心有多大

有时真的很羡慕其他人,至少有人谅解他们,有人关心他们
我的挣扎、忧虑,没人了解,没人想了解。

算了,考也考差不多好了,就好好做这种没人了解的人吧!
在人面前强颜欢笑只为了不想别人担心和不破坏别人的心情...(",)